How far can you go for your loved one? I keep on asking myself that question, oblivious to the fact that I will hurt myself in the process. It's not a matter of whether it is right or wrong. It's about whether I can go for it any longer. It's never easy for me to give in to something that I don't like. I am just not the type. I simply go for something that I want and let go of everything that I don't. For me, life is just enjoying every single moment of it because as the saying goes 'Life is short.' I just don't get the point of holding into something if it's against your heart. Not until i was faced with my dilemma. I am faced to choose between my loved one and something that I just naturally hate. Just for the sake of those who don't get it, my loved one is the incoming president of an organization that I don't like. And the idea sucks bigtime. Its tearing us apart. One may say that its too shallow to come between two people who love each other... but it's easier said than done. Perhaps it's my weakness that I can't deal with that organization. Perhaps it's my flaw. But bottomline... I just cant. I really can't. My loved one volunteered to let go of the position. But the pain of letting go that is so evident in his eyes everytime I look at him just kills every inch of me. I know how much he values that position. I can't take to look at his eyes without blaming myself. So i told him not to quit. Yes, I know, that I am hard to deal with. I dont want him to be there but I don't want him to quit. So how did it end up? I chose to deal with him and his organization. There are times when my sanity just loosens up and I end up blaming him. Then he will volunteer again to quit for me to get okay. Then I will get guilty and plea him not to quit. And the cycle continues. So tell me, how far will this go? I don't know.  | 
